Postpartum Depression and Anxiety

Well, I haven't written about the really scary episodes I had...maybe cause I'm fearful if I go back there I may not come back. Here is what it feels like:

• you have intrusive irrational thoughts about everything
  
• you feel agitated and fearful constantly
• you feel like you would rather not be alive than feel like this
• you feel isolated and lonely
• you feel despair
• you feel like this is never going to end
• you feel like no one understands
• you feel like a psycho
• you feel like screaming so you do it in your head

The list goes on but I don't want to depress anyone else that may not be...